I feel all because of her

Its been a while annyeong!!!!!

So today is special day for me. 

Because today is my sister graduation. 

She officially had a title S.E .... 

I'm so happy, touched and glad for her.. 

But in the deep of my heart, i have a little bit sad. No.. no.. its not like feeling bcs i'm not happy. But its been like "oh finally my mom and dad has a daughter who can make them proud. My mom finally can smile in heaven bcs her daugher have a degree ㅠㅠㅠ. Finally my dad can said to anyone or his family "I have a daughter who has a bachelor's degree". He can brag about it. His hard working every day without a day off at the age of entering his twilight ㅠㅠㅠ

And its make me feel "I'm sorry I can't provide that for you guys. I can't give it that fast. I apologize for all the belated feelings of pride and those feelings are not from me, your eldest daughter. I apologize.. but i'm so glad, my sister can reach it for you guys..

Honestly i dont know why everything that my sister reach out, all is my dream..

She has a best friend. She has a lot friend.

She's not a shy person. She attended a prestigious school. people know her. and she is a scholar. And i really... really proud of her ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ